March 06, 2007
~ Randomly...
An Ah Girl beyond reach... A love beyond reality...
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So, I decided, at that instant when the book landed on my bed, that I will go for a run.
My thighs and calves are aching now. Because I ran fast. For three quarters of the 3km, I felt I was running away from something. "Run! Don't let it catch up with you." I slowed down towards the end. It became "Run, Jancy, run."
When I finally stopped and took a really slow walk home, I started wondering if it's valid that exercise makes you feel good (about what, I don't know). Approaching my block, I felt like sitting down at the pavement and bury my head, hair dripping with perspiration, between my legs, close my eyes and cry. But I didn't.
Someone came to ask me to change the wallpaper for her handphone. 'Cos it was in Chinese and she couldn't read. I suspected that was not her handphone. I asked if it was hers. She said it wasn't. And left it at that. So, I left it at that too. And helped her change the wallpaper.
I just wanted to get home, shower and sleep.
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There was no recipient name on the front of the bubble envelope. Just my address. So, my parents must have opened it up to see what's inside. They guessed right. It was meant for me.
Me, whose name shall not be mentioned.
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Heard this over radio just now...
我相信:
有一个地方，你去了，就永远都不会想离开；有一个人，你一辈子只会遇见一次却永远都不会忘记。
And I thought...
很遗憾，我们还是没有紧握彼此的手，一起走到那个地方。或许你已经忘记；而我，我宁愿不要记得，而不是去忘记。
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The songs Meisen sent me during my depression have grown on me. My MRT ride songs. Makes the mood before work a little down and depressing.
But once I reach office, I think I'm one of the more cheerful workers in my office.
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The tremors have been felt. My computer screen swayed and I thought my table was giving way.
We didn't get evacuated, nor evacuate ourselves (Kudos to Apple and her colleagues for that!). We stayed put and emailed each other.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 23:44